I was just having my sluggish brain and recently-spiritless-being getting prepared for a long blue Christmas. Here I go again. Blabbering about my personal catastrophes and the never ending story of my miserable life (not so totally miserable, just recently you know). Life is really a little ironic I believe. Despite all these things that is happening to me, I still am very able to laugh about it (talk about "ikadlaw ang libog"). I truly live by that virtue. And through the vast darkness of my present situation, I saw light. Both literally and figuratively. Here's my little story:
"I really wanted to cry (lament would be a better catch) about what happened. But my tears seem to freeze. No tears do come out whenever I want them to. I want to talk it out, but people around me seemed to be pleased with my jolly personality. So, why ruin the facade?
Fortunately, a good friend of mine wanted to meet up and talk about it (as in detailed). Twas a relief. Though I wasn't able to cry my heart out, I was able to pour out everything I wanted to say. I actually saw light (my friend's name is Delight). After the short conversation about my pitiful experience, we went Christmas shopping! That was an instant therapy! Why didn't I think of going shopping earlier so that I wouldn't have felt really bad? (Oh well, how can I go shopping with zero cash in hand, anyway? Stupid me!). After all, I felt good.
I was relieved from being sunken in distress but something even made me feel better. It was a text message I received from my Dad telling me to attend the Christmas party (which he forbade me to attend at first), then go straight home (to Manapla) right after. I was not just glad, I was delighted (i love to use the word). I would have hugged my dearest father for being so understanding. I couldn't ask for more. I'm just so thankful. Despite the high expenditures I caused my family, they still love me and stood by me.
One last thing that truly enlightened me is that I found Php300.00 along my piles of used and unused envelopes. I was rummaging among them because I quite believed I would be able to find something. Then, presto! There I found my 300 bill inserted neatly in one of the envelopes. Talk about intuition."
So that's it. The light I'm trying to tell you is It's just somewhere around you. You don't have to search in the vastness of space, you'll just have to open your eyes wider. It's often found in people you hold dear in your heart whether they be near or far from you. I'm glad I have friends who are always there for me. I might not tell them what really is going inside me, they never asked, but they listened and understood. Oh how I love my friends! I'm totally loving the life I have now. Ciao!
"I really wanted to cry (lament would be a better catch) about what happened. But my tears seem to freeze. No tears do come out whenever I want them to. I want to talk it out, but people around me seemed to be pleased with my jolly personality. So, why ruin the facade?
Fortunately, a good friend of mine wanted to meet up and talk about it (as in detailed). Twas a relief. Though I wasn't able to cry my heart out, I was able to pour out everything I wanted to say. I actually saw light (my friend's name is Delight). After the short conversation about my pitiful experience, we went Christmas shopping! That was an instant therapy! Why didn't I think of going shopping earlier so that I wouldn't have felt really bad? (Oh well, how can I go shopping with zero cash in hand, anyway? Stupid me!). After all, I felt good.
I was relieved from being sunken in distress but something even made me feel better. It was a text message I received from my Dad telling me to attend the Christmas party (which he forbade me to attend at first), then go straight home (to Manapla) right after. I was not just glad, I was delighted (i love to use the word). I would have hugged my dearest father for being so understanding. I couldn't ask for more. I'm just so thankful. Despite the high expenditures I caused my family, they still love me and stood by me.
One last thing that truly enlightened me is that I found Php300.00 along my piles of used and unused envelopes. I was rummaging among them because I quite believed I would be able to find something. Then, presto! There I found my 300 bill inserted neatly in one of the envelopes. Talk about intuition."
So that's it. The light I'm trying to tell you is It's just somewhere around you. You don't have to search in the vastness of space, you'll just have to open your eyes wider. It's often found in people you hold dear in your heart whether they be near or far from you. I'm glad I have friends who are always there for me. I might not tell them what really is going inside me, they never asked, but they listened and understood. Oh how I love my friends! I'm totally loving the life I have now. Ciao!
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