the despidida..

Despidida parties are usually enveloped by a sad, or should I say gloomy atmosphere. Well, most despididas are like that I believe, but not in our case. Who said despididas are always meant to be gloomy? Happy people like us won't fit in if such parties would ask us to carry sad faces.

28th of February, 2009. Not a very ordinary nor extraordinary day at all. Twas Xian and Jhaey's birthday (both celebrated their days by themselves without inviting me! mga tonto! well, I have my previously agreed engagements anyway). Twas as well Jom's despidida party. (Jom is one of my bestfriends, and is planning to migrate to the States with the rest of their family). I actually felt both excitement and hesitation in attending the party last Saturday. I was excited because all my peers will be gathered together even just for a little while. (Kis-a sa malaka lang kami daan matipon). I was hesitant then, because I don't wanna say goodbye. Although I was not whole heartedly willing to go, I went. I don't wanna be absent in one of the most important events in our lives (it could be considered important, perhaps). Twas not a big celebration really, just a simple gathering of important people in their lives that they wanna sepend their last days here in the Philippines with. I was very grateful that I am one of them.

Sta. Cruz resort, is where we all gathered. Not everyone decided to swim because of the scorching heat of the sun (including eem eem and me because actually, we have no idea that we are going to the beach..haha!). Eventhough we didn't have the chance to enjoy the salt water, we were not dismayed because we played in the sand--we have drawn our names, shapes and traced our footprints. We wanted the day to be memorable, so we did our best not to cry. We entertained ourselves by talking about our past memories together, both happy and sad. From first year encounter down to fourth year parting ways. We all laughed (I'll never forget those laughs from everyone, esp from Mommy Emz). I was telling myself not to crybecause I don't want them to bring with them a memory of a crying Maimai. Good thing I won over my emotions and left the resort smiling. The smile that they will remember. This face that somehow made a difference in their lives, like what they did to mine.

A battle well fought. My tears never did fall until I reached home. I really felt a bit sick holding my tears back. At least I'm doing it for a good cause. It doesn't matter if I cry or not (well maybe i'll cry on the airport, if I can go with them there). On the 8th or March, off they'll go to Oakland. Dunno when will they be back again (seems like I'm singing a song here or something..blah blah..whatever).

I'll really miss them--Momy Emz, the Mom of everyone. You never did fail to care and love us the way you did to your own children. You saw us the way we are and accepted us whole heartedly. I already lost a Mom once, and now here I am again bidding good bye to another Mom. To Kuya--though we're not that close, I know you loved us as your own siblings. We may be annoying (entering your room without permission, or using the computer even you wanted to use it already), but you accepted us. You treated us as part of your family. I really did enjoy your company. And lastly, to Jom2--you will always be my and our bestfriend. You may be miles and miles away from us, you will always be in our hearts. I'm gonna miss you badly. No words can describe how important you are to me, to us. It's like I'll be looking for a missing puzzle piece of my life until the day we will be reunited. I will truly wait for that time to come (this time, when I say wait, I'll wait..guaranteed with no complaints).