'younger' here connotes to be someone who has an older brother or sister. i am the eldest in the family with only one sibling. we have 7 years age gap which may explain why i keep on wondering. to start with, i was so excited to reach home form long hours of travel from iloilo-bacolod-manapla. i arrived at home somehow tired but is still able to move around. i decided to take a shower then went to our (my sister and mine's) room to turn the laptop on and start tapping ( i feel so free to use the lappy al by myselfsince my lil sis wasn't home..she was out for some research or something). but i was shocked when i saw the study table empty. i went to check her closet, not a good sign. then i went to ask mom where the heck is the laptop. then, just as i thought, she brought it with her (how clever of her). but mom said she needed to bring it for the research (for Pete's sake, doesn't her other classmates have copmuters at home? and not to mention that they're only mere 1st year HIGHSCHOOL students). but then, i realized she's all grown up now. and i have to admit that i depended on her stuff while i left mine in iloilo (teh kay kabug-at bala magbit2 mo..matabok pako bi sa dagat!). well then, to comfort myself, i ate almost every little chocolate i saw in the refrigerator (no worries with the diabetes). then, i slept in my mom's room just because i feel like it (papa was at work still).
the next day, it still rained all day so we have to stay at home. good thing,my dearest sister arrived early (even before i got out of bed). so i asked her if i could borrow her lappy for the whole day, and thank goodness she agreed because she has to get back to school in the afternoon because of some sort of 'make-up class', she says. yet to my dismay, after i sined in to facebook, plurk and the like, the electricity went out and the battery wasn't even full yet. all i did was try to fit everything i wanted to do in just a matter of a few minutes. so, i was feeling sad then the whole day. but not until dinner because papa came (he always makes my day).
then, out of nowhere, i came to ask them why they allowed my sister to do an overnight research in her friend's house. i remembered my sister telling me that my higshcool frind told her that, "kadaya cmu, c manang mo ya sang una third year na kag gnsugtan!"..exactly! it kept me puzled for a while that there are a lot of stuff that she gets to experience ahead of time if compared to my case. i am not really jealous or something, but i can't help but ask. well, i never questioned the love our parents showed us. it's just that my stubborn thoughts kept bugging me. yet, i came to think what's it like to be in here shoes. mama and papa is always around for her, unlike me who is nautical miles away from home. she gets to see what happens to my life in some point, may it be a milestone or a crash. she gets to learn from my own personal experiences. and she's able to avoid the mistakes i've done that could possibly also happen to her. isn't it nice? but then, i still want my life. i love being me and the way i am. it's just that my brain is kinda' malfunctioning that my thoughts have gone astray.
the next day, it still rained all day so we have to stay at home. good thing,my dearest sister arrived early (even before i got out of bed). so i asked her if i could borrow her lappy for the whole day, and thank goodness she agreed because she has to get back to school in the afternoon because of some sort of 'make-up class', she says. yet to my dismay, after i sined in to facebook, plurk and the like, the electricity went out and the battery wasn't even full yet. all i did was try to fit everything i wanted to do in just a matter of a few minutes. so, i was feeling sad then the whole day. but not until dinner because papa came (he always makes my day).
then, out of nowhere, i came to ask them why they allowed my sister to do an overnight research in her friend's house. i remembered my sister telling me that my higshcool frind told her that, "kadaya cmu, c manang mo ya sang una third year na kag gnsugtan!"..exactly! it kept me puzled for a while that there are a lot of stuff that she gets to experience ahead of time if compared to my case. i am not really jealous or something, but i can't help but ask. well, i never questioned the love our parents showed us. it's just that my stubborn thoughts kept bugging me. yet, i came to think what's it like to be in here shoes. mama and papa is always around for her, unlike me who is nautical miles away from home. she gets to see what happens to my life in some point, may it be a milestone or a crash. she gets to learn from my own personal experiences. and she's able to avoid the mistakes i've done that could possibly also happen to her. isn't it nice? but then, i still want my life. i love being me and the way i am. it's just that my brain is kinda' malfunctioning that my thoughts have gone astray.
